How is this the last day of 2019? 2018 flew by quicker than any year I can remember. I started 2018 as an anxious new mama cradling a tiny four month old baby wondering how I’d ever go back to work. Now I have a walking, spunky 16 month old and I’ve found my new normal (usually!)! Excited to take a look back at 2018 below with our favorite outfits and an ever-growing Naiya.
And just like that, Phil and I are the proud parents of a one-year-old! The first time I held Naiya exactly one year ago last night (#imnotcryingyourecrying), my nurse handed her over to me and told me to savor the moment because I’d blink and the next year would fly by. While I assumed that time would go quickly, in the insanely sleep-deprived, over-the-top stressful first few weeks of Naiya’s life, I never could have imagined just how quickly. When she was first born, I often wanted to speed up time so that we could find our new normal. Now here we are, exactly one year later (at 11:40pm last night!) and I only wish we could go back to that first moment with Naiya to do it all over again.
Since Naiya is about to turn one year old later this week, I’ve been feeling overly nostalgic recently (I’m not crying storing her 6-12 month old clothing in the attic–you’re crying!). Hands down, this has been the most incredible, meaningful, pivotal and exhausting year of my life. I’ve never felt such extreme highs and lows in the same hour, let alone in the same week as I have this year. I’ve also never felt so happy, terrified and also so fulfilled all at the same time.
I’m excited to share the below article with you today where my hubby, Phil makes a special appearance. Since I’ve been sharing so much about our lives as first-time parents recently, I asked Phil to open up about his experience with fatherhood too. Truth be told, it took him a while to answer these questions because his journey into fatherhood was not as easy as he had hoped. Fatherhood initially felt extremely overwhelming and it took him a while to work through a lot of unexpected anxiety. Now that he’s found his new normal, he’s opening up about his journey below in hopes that it may help other dads and dads-to-be know that they’re not alone. Without further ado, here are Phil’s confessions of a first-time dad in his own words: